What He Doesn't Know (Fraycest)

Gerard's pov

Ever since we moved to Belleville New Jersey I have felt out of place. Then again I was completely out of place in  Summit as well. At least I still have Mikey tho. Yes there is a bit of weirdness about us. Not just usual brother crap. I mean we do on occasion have our 'tender moments'. I guess you could call them tender moments. Well, we are both sorta loners. Getting dates has never really been easy for either of us. I guess that's just an excuse tho. I'm 18 and he is 14. He acts older tho. He has always fit in with any friends I had. And sometimes at night he comes into my room and we... snuggle and 'stuff'. It's not like we've ever had sex or anything. We just make out a little. Okay a lot but whatever. We might get a little touchy feely but that's it tho I swear! Mikey is my brother and I'll always love him! This is just a thing. I don't know. I'm sure it will end as soon as we both get steady people in our lives.

I've been able to make friend here at least. Ray is a really cool guy. Odd looking but fun to hang out with. He plays the guitar and he's pretty awesome at it! I wish I could play but anytime I've tried I've failed miserably. I guess that's just not for me. He thinks my art work is cool so that's something I guess.

There is one thing, well, person that stands out in this place tho. A guy at my school named Frank Iero. He is the hottest guy I've ever seen! Sure he's a freshman like Mikey and I'm a senior but who cares! This guy is something out of this world! He has tattoos all over his arms and neck and God only knows where else! Don't ask me how he got them at his age but they are awesome! He has a nose ring, a lip ring, a black mohawk that falls down the side of his face with shaved red hair on the sides. He's a bit short but if you saw this guy you would know, it just doesn't matter! I've always known I was bisexual but figured for my parent's sake I would try my best to end up with a girl. When I see Frank tho I forget all about that. I would do anything to date this guy! Give anything!

xoxo

Mikey's pov

Great a new start at a new school. Mom says this is my chance to start over. I've never really made good grades like my brother. I guess I could pay more attention in school it's just that even when I do I still have a hard time. It's easy for me to give up. I guess I'll try here. I mean I don't really care about good grades and going to college but my mom does and I love her so I'll really try this year.

It's lonely at the new school tho. We've been here for 2 weeks and nobody has talked to me yet. My older brother Gee is a senior so at least I have him for one more year of school. He keeps encouraging me to put more of an effort into making friends. He never cared about that so much before. He would make just a few friends here and there and they'd always invite me to hang out with them so I never really made friend's my age. But I know why he is doing it tho. He has this thing for this Frank Iero guy that's in my math and gym class. I know he must really like him too because he's never talked about anyone like he does this guy. I get it. I mean the guy is pretty hot I guess. I mean if you like the inked pierced look. Total punk looking guy. He has lots of friends too so people must find him pretty cool. I mean it's not that I don't or anything. In fact the first time I saw him I thought he was pretty hot. I wanted to get to know him myself. As soon as Gee showed interest in him well, I guess I got kinda jealous. Not really the way you'd think tho. No you would never guess so I'll tell you.

Okay so I'm kinda sorta totally in love with my brother. Yeah yeah you think that's really weird or sick or whatever. That's fine. I don't care what you think. I'm used to it. When I told my old friend Andrew about it before we moved, he thought I was a freak too. Which is why I wasn't so sad about leaving him behind. Not many people would understand my feelings for my brother tho I guess. But Gee is so awesome! He is this great artist! He draws pictures and makes comics and stuff. I always look forward to seeing his new stuff! He is also a great singer but he doesn't admit to it. Low self esteem I guess. I notice it tho. He has a really good heart and the most gorgeous smile ever! The way his black hair hangs down on his shoulders all feathery and stuff. I love to just run my fingers through it when nobody is looking at us. Yeah I often sneak down to his room in the middle of the night. I tell him it's from nightmares but really I just want to spend that time with him. Time when I walk down there and in the dim light of the moon I see him smile as he lifts the covers for me to crawl in and snuggle up close to him. How he traces his soft fingers down my chin and lifts it up. I look into his beautiful eyes that match my own as my heart starts to race before he finally lets his lips touch mine. Tender kisses and wandering hands all through the night until we fall asleep in each other's arms. Yes I love my brother very much! I wish he wasn't so into this Frank guy. I want him to be happy tho so I'll do as he asks me. I'll try to make friends with the tattooed guy and invite him over or something. I just hope he doesn't start to mean more to Gee than me. No that couldn't happen. I don't think. No.